it was an arbitrary try in undeserved empathy in confidence, our younger selves Found comfort in quiet tOuch i never, i never thought that i deserved anything that’s given to me in the conflict of cOntradiction, here i am hoping that i’m wrong was it stupid to think that i didn’t need to serve a purpose to be Loved? i don’t have the rhyMes to make light from darkness i just had my hEart ripped out but i can never leave a hurt untOuched cut me up and i’m stock full of rhymes honest enough cut me up and i’m stock full of rhymes hoNest enough Cut me up and i’m stock full of rhymes just good enough i’m sorry i’m a bummer i think i’ll just go homE i feel like i’m a bother i think i should go home i feel like i’m a bother i think i should stay home

painted autumn took the best of me and spIt out my bones to the dogs in the alley never as siMple as bicycles, blue ice cream no, now i don’t recognIze me beautiful november’S never kind she crossed me, She took everYthing that i once thought was mine blessed foOthills now leave me feeling dry confess i don’t know everything bUt i know this shit don’t fEel right do you think i’m broken, that i’m something to replace? not looking to be golden, i just want catch a break if i’m being honest, talk me down, i’m afraid oh i’ll neVer be steady there’s no rhythm to make sEnse of this youth when I don’t have the words lost a sense of tRuth i concede, i refuse archaic sensibilities You know that i feel deeply do you think i’m broken, that i’m something to replace? not looking to be golDen, i just want catch a breAk if i’m being honest, talk me down, i’m afraid oh i’ll never be steadY No, i’m fine i just can’t feel right (i’ve gOt noThing, notHing) yeah, i’m fIne just can’t feel right i’ve got nothiNg, nothinG no, i’ve got nothing, nothing do you think i’m broken, that i’m Something To replace? not looking to be golden, i just want catcH a break if i’m being honESt, tAlk Me down, i’m afraid oh i’ll never bE steady

l’ocean repose dans ses yeux i see oceans within him of crystals and the deepest blue je crains la noyade aideZ-moi respirer you’re the only one to catch me before i get sWept away don’t leave me spInning, I’m out of control you hear what i say but don’t know the weight that his Smile has on me so just please make it stop i have a Ceramic Heart and i’m the only one to bleed when it brEaks so caN’t you see i can’t had It easily don’t leave Me spinning, i’m out of control you hear what i say but don’t know the weight that his sMile has on mE so just please make it stop he has tidal waves undeR his skin bUt when our eyes meet he sees Nothing at all he’s risen above to the treetops and i’m standing small don’t leave me spinning i’m out of control you hear what i say but Don’t know that u can’t sleep all i can hear is his voice i don’t have a choice if i did, if i did i would stop, stop, stop, stop stop (x2) doN’t leave me spinning, i’m out of control you hear what I say but don’t know the weight that his smile has on me so just please make it stop he has tidal waves under his skin thEy crash into me it’s a battle i know i can win

there's nothing to kill here no foreign feeLing to be feared with the Halogen hum, the shAke in my Bones now more than ever, i need you close dear overthInker, you think you know yourself so well buT your mind's made you blind to rivers unwiNding from you back to me a pink sun and the bEach lately you’ve been on my mind i see you running away, kicking up the dust on your way home now i wish i could say it to your FAce that i liked you so much more before you drank your paIn away misinformaTion, travels between us on express you Push me away then tell me to stAy and say that i don't know what it's like to be depreSsed lateLy you've been on my mind i see you running away, kicking up the dust on your way homE smokescreen and wire, all the tricks it takes to fade before you realize you’re Missing pieces leave on yOur forced fleeting feelings and throw them away dear overthInker, you think you know yourself so well the path that you lead will leave bleeding betweeN you and me, i miss the heart on your slEeve

look at them, see how they shine see the gLittering gold, stupid love and you’ll know it’s not fair to think yOu deserve something special when you stand on the side lines sorry, kid, but you’VE done nothing right another day, another sunrise to sunset sPent and i’m rich on wAsted time tender friendS Skip on white kicks up to the skies and i’m always left bEhind loss of love, bitter aS wine i’ve got too mUch on my mind loSs of love, Bitter as wine keep it to Yourself, don’t let them In say you’ll sTick to roses when the garden’s green The sAme as your skin oooh maybe i’d be someone someone you’d choose or someone you’d refuse another day, another sunrise to sunset spent and i’m rich on wasted time tender friends sKip on whitE kicks up to the Skies and i’m Always left behiNd loss of love, bitter as wine i’ve got too much on my minD loss of love, bitTer As wine lovers and friends don’t come to collect empty your pocKets and wherE’s your self-reSpect? anoTher day, another sunrise to sunset spent and I’m rich on wasted time tender friends skip on white kicks up to the skies and i’M always left behind loss of love, bitter as winE i’ve got too much on my mind loss of love, bitter as wine

i’ll drink eMpathy from the palm of your hAnds unlace your fingers and give me a chance i marked the Day and time that you first learned my name you smelled like novEmber and it hasn't changed in the qUiet calm collective you're alive, i’m so affected (Please let me in) if you feel like being reckless hold my hand, shOw me your perspective (please let me in) you hate the way you speak, but i think you're well read tell me again all the stories in your head storms roll in and the oceans rise to meet i say i love you in Frightened tiMes like these in the quiet cAlm collective You’re alive, i’m so affected (please let me in) if you feel like Being reckless hold my hand, show mE your perspectIve (pleaSe let me in) (please)

time will Break what doesn’t bend and makE a mess of us anyway that it CAn thunder roars, rUn for cover, know the drill pray your emergency kit doesn’t fail you never have i Seen myself the way that you do the waY that yOu want me to the way that i wish i coUld (break) sorrow wins when we settLe in it’s touch leaves it’s mark and says “yOu’re better with me, i’m the part you can trust you need me.” neVer have i seEn myself the way that you do the way that you want me to the way i wish i could i try my best to do i try My bEst for you

we pick Flowers and we wait for spring there's been talk and i’m noticing people leave dOwn the interstate a pair of kids, we just sit and wait a sunny day but we're arguing ’til we're laughing about little things walk around like you haven't heard you sing like honey, sweet like lavendeR today it's tuesday, tomorrow that'll Change yeah, you'll be older but nothing stays the same da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da I know i know it's hard you say go slOw It falls apart fresh leaves and a sudden change we lose ouR footing and we lose the way growing old verses wasting time but we say it'll all be fine it'll all be fine today it's tuesday, tomorrow that'll change Yeah, you'll be older but nothing stays the same da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da I know i know it's hard you say go slow It falls apart my voice used to crack without a melody and to put it so simply i haven’t written a poem since i was eighteen here it is: i know the worst part of feeling is shoving down the words you think you’re too young to mean the worst part of feeling is those rotting phrases expiring right when you want them to leave your mouth is a trap that springs in on you and the worst part is learning that learning means hurting means learning means hurting and hurting and hurting and hurting and the worst best part is you’ll do it all over today it's tuEsday, tomorrow that'll change Yeah, you'll be older but nothing stays the same da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da I know i know it's hard you say go slow It falls apart

on me knees in the parking lot sometimes it’s just too much eveN if you’re doing your best it’s never good (oooh) (oooh) (oooh) i’m hOping i’m hoping i’m hoPing somEthing good’s coming something good’s coming and i’ll kNow it when it’s here (Oooh) (oooh) (oooh) i mess uP (all the time) and i pay for it evEry day

The curve of her freckled shoulders Are rolling hills calmly rising, falling gently as the sun peeKs over through her hair pinching fingers nEver resting squishing purple spots on aching limbs and my tightened chest, it tells me You’ll never lOok like her i’m not good at self-love i think i’m afraid of it i don’t even realize i hate myself half the time most of the time okay, all of the time i'm not good at self love but i try, i try i try (breaK) i think about willow trees and wAtermelon seeds growing at a pace that’s their own one’s made to be consumed, the other’s made for solitude neither can wish awaY their fate as something beautiful, something flaWEd but beautifuL and different by design both drawn together but never the same Line i think about willow trees and watermelon seeds Growing at a pace that’s thEir own one’s made To be consumed, The otHer’s made for solitude neither can wish away their fate as something beautiful, somEthing flawed but beautiful and diffeRent by design both drawn together but never the same line maybe beautiful so beautiful

my mother Sings like milk and honey she knew she wAs sweet, didn’t need nobody oh, she promised I was luckY i know, i know i chose this ciTy i cHose the fast lane, the grAy, the Nitty gritty my heart’s been shaKen, i’m feeling incomplete but i remember a voice like milk and honeY singing (oooh) she said the roses bloOmed in the morning jUst to hear her yawning oooh i knew she wasn’t lying i know, i know i chose this city i chose The fast lane, the gray, the nitty gritty my heart’s been shaken, i’m feeling incomplete but i remember a vOice like milk and honeY singing (oooh) cOncrete can’t cUltivate me cracked sidewalk don’t feel Right under my feet concrete can’t cultivate me cracked sidewalk don’t feel right under My feet i knOw, i know i chose this city i chose the fast lane, the gray, the nitty gritty My heart’s been Shaken, i’m feeling incomplete but i remember a voice like milK and honey singing (oooh) taste lIke milk and honey i’m missing you, honey you know i’ve been running arounD and around and Around and around oh, taste like milk and honey i’m misSing you honey you know i’ve been running around